All over january I have been ill my mind full of clutter and memories I was torn in two.. Do I believe what the lord says or dont I. My mind my thoughts were swinging this way and that way, memories of times gone past, which still haunt me to this day.. I had to have medication to help me sleep and try to forget the awfull memories that went through my head and left me terrified and drained.. Then one day I was watching a programme on christian TV, which the speaker said that the human mind is sometimes so full of chatter that we miss the whisper of the holy spirit.. EUREKA!!!!!.. I thought so thats why the lord seemed so silent.. I had not listened my mind had been so full of the enermys whisperings and lies and me like the human being I am had listened. I asked the lords forgiveness, and I prayed for the holy spirit to come into me and ohhh such bliss I felt so much love that I had been too foolish not to realise had been there for me all the time.. Had I only taken the time to listen and follow the holy spirits leadings.. My faith now is growing and seems stronger yes the enermy still tries to make me doubt, yes I slip up but I ask the lords forgiveness and I am beginning now to at last learn how to shoo the enemy away..